Treacherous Loyalty ProPart2

Starscream: Empathy

Secretive.

I am and I know it. Not even my Trine know the true extent of how much I keep from them. They know to some extent, I have told them so, but they do not press further and for that -another secret- I am grateful. My true potential lies hidden. My true thoughts lie guarded. My True self lies trapped within me, a prisoner by my own doing.

Cowardice.

A coward I may appear but one I am not. I know this and that's all that matters. He knows it too but it's his job to label it as such. If he didn't then I have failed in my duty to him. I... am a brave coward.

Trust.

Apparently... I lack such a thing. I'm a paranoid, self serving glitch. I am too, and I am glad everyone thinks this. Everyone, that is, who doesn't know me. I trust my Trine to trust me even though I treat them like slag. And they do. Both of them. I love them for it. And even when tempers flare I know that I will defend them because they trust me! They trust me. It is all I can do to return it.

Loyalty.

Do I lack it? I can't understand how others say I do. I have fought, bled and sacrificed my life for their cause. I have never abandoned them even when humiliated, even when I have long become weary of the jeering, the disrespect that Megatron has planted for me. I have stayed. I have continued to fight, to bleed; for them. If that is not loyalty? Then what is?

Treacherous.

Am I? My Trine seem to be fine and in tip top condition. What little I do control of the Decepticon army is also in a similar condition if not better. The Decepticons are still united and fight under one flag. Megatron is still alive...
If I have ever betrayed someone it would be the one that meant the most to me... but not one other knows of that true treachery.